A Little Update.

6,000+ youtube subscribers! OMO!!!!
Thank you for your support... when I started playing piano for youtube, I didn't even know what a view or a subscriber was or really meant. Now... I have more than I ever dreamed of. All I can try to do is my best to keep entertaining and sometimes teaching everyone who loves the same music a me... :) I'll try to get better! In college, this fall! Maybe I'll be able to take some piano or music class yay! :D

Sunburned my chest and neck, trying to get a tan in my pale areas ><; My legs and upper arms and face are coming along slowly, with a tanning spray / suntan lotion. Sigh.

Every day, every single day is get skinny, get skinny, get pretty. Exercise, what not to eat, exercise, skin care, tan, exercise... all day every day for the past two months. And it's kind of paying off... I mean, I get cold and bruised really easy now, and super tired after a walk, and I fell asleep yesterday in the middle of the day! It's sunny outside but the breeze is FREEZING. But it's all worth it, and any more pain that's going to come with losing weight. BRING IT ON!!! I'm not failing this time, no way.

21 lbs. down, 35 (at least) more to go.

Until I can fit in Japan as a normal girl. I'm so, so glad I'm not too tall, or big-footed or big-handed or big-headed. If I just lose weight and body mass, and figure out what to do with my hair and clothes and face, then I can... maybe, just maybe, make some memories as a happy half-Jap kid during my one year of study abroad?

That's all I can think about. My studying abroad in Japan in my junior year in college. Freshman year starts this Fall (I'm excited but terrified) and at Orientation, I'm going to tell my counselor everything about my plans to study abroad and yaaaaay I can really start planning it!! I can't wait...

I was looking through my lyric / picture books of purchased CDs two days ago, like DBSK's Five in the Black, SHINE, and w-inds. and Super Junior etc... I was kinda getting motivated to exercise (that was my purpose) and then I got to my first ever J-pop CD lyric book.

Utada Hikaru's "Can You Keep A Secret?"

My "penpal" "friend" wait, we're actually related! My mom's mom's sister's daughter's daughter. My grandma's sister's granddaughter. What the heck does that make us? Great cousins? Anyway... Kurumi gave it to me when I went to Japan in 2003. I listened to it on my new CD player (she gave me that as well! It died a few months ago... finally, put to rest... ;___;) all the time while I was in Japan. On the train back to Tokyo, to the airport, on the airplane back to America, mostly. Everytime I think of the songs on that CD, I picture the blurring scenes from the train. I really, really vividly do. The green trees flashing past, the tunnel, coming in to Tokyo but first the little villages, the steps, the temple and hills that looked like they were from Totoro!!

So when I saw the booklet of the first J-pop CD I ever received, the song started playing in my head. I haven't listened to it for years, but I remember it perfectly. And I started to cry... because I want to return to Japan so, so, bad.

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I watched Shrek 3 for the first time today, and I was surprised at how good it was! All I wanna do now though is watch the Japanese version and hear lovely prince TACHIBANA KEITA do Artie!!!!! GAHHHH especially the part where he begs to Merlin to cast the spell... XXDD

I was going to watch Cinderella Man tonight but I ended up blogging and youtubing too long, is there enough time? I wanna go to bed early -___-; And tomorrow's a new day. Again. Starting the exercise and diet process all over again. But tomorrow, my walk is to Farmer's Market to get fresh, sweet fruit! :D My sister and I walk over every Saturday. The white peaches are the bessstt... the cherries and strawberries are awesome too. And also, clothes shopping for summer camp, to Wal-Mart tomorrow! *sigh* I don't want to buy clothes yet, but time is running out and I HAVE to. I don't want to get new clothes until I lose all the weight I want to shed! And then, I want to get pretty, feminine, cute Japanese-ish clothes.

Roots and Wings on Sunday. Dreading. But not a much as what else is happening on Sunday.

I don't know how I will react. Or act. Maybe breakdown? Hopefully in private.

Anyway.

I wanna go to bed now.