I owe everyone an update. The littlest one, at the very least :) I'll think of the biggest, main points, and TRY not to be too depressing... life hasn't only been stumbles recently ^^
- in mid August I began school, once again. College. Let's see if I don't drop out after the first semester like last year? So far it's been SO FUN. Music, Japanese 1A (I'm more like a tutor... xp), Chinese 1A (sooooo fun repeating after the teacher!) and ballroom dancing (sooooooo fun)! I've gotten so confident at introducing myself first, and making new friends! I'm so unexpectedly happy and feel welcome at school!
- being called "so skinny it's disgusting"
- being hit on for FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE by a SCARY GUY before Chinese class (an evening class). I'm still traumatized. It was so, scary.
- confession... along with anorexia, came along bulimia, came along BED (binge eating disorder) and it's all mixed up in a horrible, torturing mess in my life right now, making me hate myself... I hate myself, I like myself, I love myself, I despise myself, I like myself... it's insanely exhausting and I've come to know what "hell" is, truly.
- the pastor of my church unofficially named the Sunday band after me! OMG! It's so embarrassing, flattering, and just makes me smile huge X3 Every week, he stands up and says "give it up for the Jenny Hughes band!" gaahhh... XD
- work! I started work at a machine company last MONDAY with my brother, and we get called in for random jobs. Today and tomorrow we have to "deburr" these tiny... metal... thingies. They don't exactly tell us what we're doing, we just do it. My dad works for them sometimes too, so they're all friends ^^
- summer camp was a life-changer. that's tooooo long of a story.
- I try and try to play "youtube" piano. I nearly perfect "kanashimi no yukue," "I never told you" and "bonamana" and ended up playing just "no other" the past... several months! Gah! But now that school and work have gotten into rhythm, I will definitely try to put in a good chunk of time to reply to youtube messages, play more youtube songs, and rightfully appreciate youtube friends :)
I will try!
Next... should I play "Bonamana"? "Intoxication"? Hm... and should I show my face?
I'm so happy my friends and fans are still there... they jumped up right away to let me know they're there on my "no other" video... thank you you guys...
6 comments:
im sooo happy to know that you're doing great and enjoying school :)
it's been a long time since i got to hear about you so this makes me happy^^
finally get to see your face... i hope so! haha :D
i really hope you keep enjoying life, live it to the fullest!!
-one of your fans~
It's good to know that you're back and doing a lot better ^^ I love listening to your covers and hope you put up some more, because they're just really wonderful and make my day all the better <3 Wish you all the best for everything, and remember to have fun xDD
- Sushiiiiiiiiiii ^w^
I think my day was just made to see that you finaly posted something on here/ and on youtube :D I'm glad to see you're alright... !
-your fan kaokoh :)
I think my day was just made to see that you finaly posted something on here/ and on youtube :D I'm glad to see you're alright... !
-your fan kaokoh :)
Ah I'm glad you're doing well.
Good luck in college! ♥
hey thereee~
wheeee~~ a new post~!
I'm glad you're doing well and having fun going to school again and meeting new people :>
take care!
one of your fans ^,^
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