I can't wait until summer.

I don't know what to make of this weather. One day it's sunny and warm. The next day it's raining super hard. What's up with that? Sigh oh well. I can't wait until summer!!!! I'm gonna make this summer so good, so crazy good XD

When I get 4 1/2 stars on my youtube video... I wanna cry ;_;
I need 5 stars... my tutorials always get 4 1/2 stars... What should I do to make them better, you guys? I Can do anything but talk... I'm sorry, really sorry I don't know how to make sheet music! By hand, would be impossible because I just can't do that. I can't read music very well, only if I KNOW the song. And my computer is so, so, stupid I wanna kick it, stomp on it, throw it from the roof, jump on it, burn it, electrocute it, spray it with acid, then freeze it in concrete. Yeah. It's a Windows 2000. You know how long it takes to get one internet page up? And to open "My Documents" even!? I HATE IT. When I used to play BZFlag, my username was "I hate my computer!!"

I just ripped off a bit of ivy from my backyard fence yeah. I screamed a few times, when I found juicy spiders crawling on my arm, or on the vine I was pulling. My face and arms feel itchy now. I have a splinter. I'm typing with filthy fingernails and dirty hands. But OMG, I'm happy. I love doing yard work. I didn't even listen to my ipod, because all morning I listened to Bryan Adams singing songs from Spirit, Stallion of the Cimarron and it was stuck in my head very nicely =)

This morning, I scrubbed the mildew off my sister's bedroom walls and ceiling, thoroughly swept the dog hair ridden floor, cleaned under the bed, made their beds, cleaned their windows, then swept again, while listening to Spirit OST <3 Gah I love cleaning! Especially with music.

Hannah, my music teacher came today! First time in a long time. I learned more about uh... what was it called? Voice leading? I Forgot ><; But I remember how to do it. With "Bye Bye Blackbird," she taught me how to play chords with the 3 5 7 and 9. I always just play arpeggio style left hand, so I get the 1 and 3 haha ><; Very bad. The chords she teaches me are so pretty. Chords like FM, Abdim? Gm7 C7 Am7-5, Eb7 yeah. It's hard but worth it lol! I need a good k-pop or j-pop song to fill with complex chords, and make more people on youtube happy.

I don't think I can ever repeat what happened with my piano version of DBSK's KimiSuki. That was crazy! 148,000+!!! ZOMG! Was it because it was leaked 2 months early, and people wanted to hear anything to do with it? Was it because they loved the song so much, they wanted to learn it on piano? I played it too fast, and I didn't even play the whole song!!! I dunno, but I am not good enough to play a song to get anywhere near 100,000 views again. But really, I do not deserve my subscribers. In my wildest dreams, when I started playing for youtube in 2006 I didn't even know what subscribers were. Having 3,500+? zomg. I'm... so lucky...

I only play songs I want to play. Usually. Sometimes an exception, like when someone begs and makes me feel bad ><; But other than that, I write down the requests but not really look at them because I want to play the songs I love. And I wonder why I don't get a lot of views haha. Do I play songs that no one wants to hear? Sigh. After Beautiful Life and a few of In Jin Nim's songs (which NO ONE practically on youtube knows) I don't have anything to play. But gah DBSK has a new album out soon? OMG I'm not ready. I'm still hooked on Mirotic. I heard Super Junior was supposed to have an album this year too. I haven't listened to them in so long! DBSK has been overwhelming.

Gonna go drop off dinner to a friend's house now, their mom's in Japan ^^ And then shower woot. I hate my hair. Maybe... Japanese hair straightening? But I SOMETIMES like the curliness... but usually absolutely hate it. Tonight I wanna watch Spirit lol. Maybe start this one shot fanfic that's been in my head for a couple days. Junsu-oppa of course. I need to practice Beautiful Life a LOT too...

Matching Convocation tomorrow omg. My parents still need my picture. But I hate picures. So bad. For now anyway. Until I can get a control on my face and body ;_____; I wanna like pictures. By One Heart Camp I swear, I'm gonna have a little more confidence and pride in myself, inside and out.