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If I had one wish, I would wish to be able to speak all the languages in the world so I could help the separated world unite again.
But I know I can't wish like that. So I'm doing what I CAN do. I'm studying, starting with Japanese and Korean. Next will be Chinese and Spanish. I know how hard it is, but I have to do it. I hope I have the strength and determination to complete my life goals. There are so many languages I won't be able to touch... Hebrew, Italian, Welsh, French, Russian, German... but there is only so much I can do. Maybe, someday, become one little bond between countries in some way.

My role models:
Hyung Jin Moon. He knows 10+ languages.
Park Yoochun. Korean, Japanese, English fluency.
Mrs. Ogiwara. One of the kindest people I know. I think her brain is set to seek out any and every way she can help the people around her, the small things.

Isn't the purpose of life to be happy? If I make other people happy, I'll be incredibly happy and satisfied with my life. I hope I can help sow seeds of unity, friendship and love with what I, and only I can do.


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When I asked God what, oh what could I do to help His world and suffering, completely begged him to tell me in this strange breakdown I had last month... I was thinking third world country volunteering, NGA, homeless shelter volunteering or something, anything physical and doable! But in my head... I couldn't get it out... and He gave me... a song. A song. Right now I am working to perfect His song. I hope I can express it right, fully. How can He trust me with His song? I'm not a good musician, I--I am horrible at classical and strict technique, not to mention knowledge about chords, progression and emotion! I can't even sing, and He gave me a song with LYRICS!! I know I used to ask Him for original songs that I could show the world for Him, but now, so much later, unexpectedly...

I am just hoping I can do my absolute best with His song, that he has trusted me to show the world. What... what do I expect from it? How will I know if I succeeded? If I get 20,000,000 views, contracts, gigs, awards, websites, fansites, tv shows, magazine interviews?

No.

But I don't know what to think, to expect.

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Today was so long. It feels like three days. Partly the fault belongs to English class, argh! My brain melted from hours at the computer on Yeats' poetry *Dead* Now I'm working it off with "Be Prepared" by Benjy Gaither from the Hoodwinked soundtrack haha XD

"Ooooooh an avalanche is coming and I do not feel prepared..." XXDD

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I've got to get my act together.

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I can't wait to go to Las Vegas this weekend!! I know I'm kinda guilty because what I'm most looking forward to is not the actual speech, but the awesome overnight bus ride, huge hotel with pool, elevator (HAHA), and many BCs and church members (I HOPE TO SEE KINESHA OMGGG!!!) and hanging out with Mie! We're sharing a hotel room, our families yay! It's going to be so fun. I hope it's warm there, California's weather is so stupidly crazy right now, I don't like it.

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I always stress about "omg, what if I had the chance to play a grand piano at a hotel lobby, or at college this fall! what song would I play, the first song ever on grand piano!? what if I messed up!! what if someone important was watchin!! GAH I NEED TO PRACTICE THE PERFECT SONG RIGHT NOW!!" like that..

"perfect songs for grand piano" according to me, as of right now:
Moriyam Naotarou - Sakura (my most favorite song in the world now and forever since five years ago) [Workin' on it!]
Yiruma songs (any!)
Naomi Shemer - Lu Yehi. My mom went to Israel several years ago, and bought David D'or's CD, "with the Philharmonic." I stole it from her and listened to it for DAYS. Then I lost it. GAH! I loved it so much. And I listened to a track from it for the first time YESTERDAY, and started crying and crying... Lu Yehi is a keeper. One of the most beautiful songs I've ever heard.
Declan Galbraith's rendition of Auld Lang Syne. I cried when I heard this too. 8 years old, with the voice of an angel. Amazing. [workin' on it]

Huh... that's all I can think of *I think I'm getting a headache*

One last thing before good night to no one who reads this lol!!

They're leaving!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!
I'm not supposed to be happy, but I can't help it.

I need to get myself together =)

Solia $73? Silk Infusion / Herbal Essences / Garnier Fructis goodness I go crazy at all the choices that I have no idea about. Even mayo and egg recipes. I chickened out though ^^; I like rambling all over the place in a way that only I can understand, but even one year later I'll look back and not understand what the heck I was talking about haha XP